The Single Most Important Question

This question will be asked at least once in your lifetime. That question is who do you say Jesus is? The question to ask yourself is if you were to die tomorrow where would you spend eternity? Not sure...Think that all your good deeds or the way you lived gets you into heaven. Think again. Maybe you think if you live a certain way that you will come back until you get it right? Isn't that depressing? None of us is perfect, so how could we possibly think we could ever achieve what only Jesus achieved? For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast. Ephesians 2:8-9 We all sin, ever lie, it's a sin, say the "F" word, still a sin. We were born into sin, (Adam & Eve) John 14:6 Jesus told him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me. Because God is so holy and we are not- all sin is sin. John 3:5 Jesus answered, "Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. 

Maybe you are mad at God or think he's mad at you? Watch this amazing sermon by Todd White. (Click his name to see the sermon) Believe in science. Science actually proves the bible story after story. Who do you think created science? As humans we believe in text books, text books are written and re-written & we believe what is in them. What is re-written is changed or corrected. The bible has never been changed or corrected. The bible is not only a book of instructions for every situation that will ever arise, but it's Gods words for us. The bible is inspired by God and yes flawed humans wrote accurate records of Gods dealings with mankind.  Do you know any other kind of humans? I don't. Inspired by God means God breathed. God is supernatural. If you are not sure about it, ask God to reveal himself to you by speaking to you though the bible. Everything God does is because he loves us so very much. God cannot lie and his words are the truth. Education has not brought enlightenment to the world. Has education given you personal peace and kept you from experiencing personal pain and broken relationships? Has science solved the deepest problems of our souls? No it certainly has not. Yes we live longer or more comfortably but you will still face death. (Isaiah 53 Explained Mitch Glaser). You can even repeat mantras that make you feel better temporarily but ultimately you will not gain true peace unless you know Jesus the Messiah as your personal Lord & Savior. 

Mark 8:29 Then he asked them, "But who do you say I am?" Peter replied, "You are the Messiah." You will be asked the same. So, how will you answer? 

God is madly in love with you, he's not mad at you or trying to get you & he's always with us, you can ignore him, even reject him & he never leaves us. How do I know? John 3:16 "For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. Deuteronomy 31:6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you." He is faithful! He is the best Father you could ever get. Maybe your earthly father didn't love you properly or you feel alone. Maybe you are afraid to trust. Maybe your heart is so broken you just gave up. God is a heart doctor and he can heal anything you have. He doesn't want religion or religious rituals, he wants you! He wants a relationship everyday all day for eternity. Maybe someone religious was living wrong and that changed your mind or a religious leader did the wrong thing. God is not people, people are imperfect, God is perfect and sinless. He would never hurt us in fact, everything he does is for us.  Romans 8:31-32 31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 

Jesus died on a cross for our sins, for you and I. He did not wait for us to be perfect, all cleaned up before he loved us. He loves us sin & all, then died for us so we could be reconciled with God. That is amazing love! A free gift wrapped in Grace for you & I. 

Romans 10:9-10

“If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.” 

Salvation prayer (you must speak this outloud and mean it in your heart)

Lord today I give you my life, come into my heart and wash me clean. I repent of my sins. Send your holy spirit to live inside of me. Jesus, I declare that you are the messiah and the Lord of my life. I acknowledge that Jesus is the Messiah that he died on the cross for my sins and rose again on the Third day so I could be made right with God In Jesus name Amen

If you said that prayer you are saved. What that means is you are getting into heaven and that you now belong to Jesus Christ. I hope you choose life and the love of God! Your life will never be the same. If you reject him, you are rejecting a life with Christ and an eternity with him further accepting an eternity in hell. So at this moment you have two choices, accept him as Lord & savior or reject him. 

God Bless,

Be Still

I have spoken to over 30 attorneys, the news, local papers, senators, the FBI, Common Counsil, State Troopers, wrote the mayor 3 times only to get sued, fought crooked insurance companies you name it just about anyone you can think of in the chain of command that is supposed to help a family. What I found out is the system is broken. Most importantly I fought instead of quitting! God is fighting for me and that gives me peace. One place passes you to another shrugging off any accountability and covering for their corrupted counter-parts. It's disgusting! There was not one decent person who cared. I found out that God loves me. I found out that he is a God of justice. If you have a small town like Danbury where everyone is doing favors for each-other but not for me, than you have absolutely no rights.  Pretty much it's corrupt from the bottom to the top and no one cared to help. It was awful and overwhelming. I realized that ALL power comes from up above. That's right, my Father, (Heavenly Father). My father owns it ALL and all power comes from above! I am now watching God work on my behalf in amazing ways. I find peace in him & knowing that he is a God of justice I have faith that not only is he going to change this crazy situation around, he is going to bring us out better than we were before. I will continue to stay in Faith, standing on Gods promises and living my life fully & joyfully. God promises double for your trouble (Job 42:10) -whew I'm about to get a blessing so wonderful that I cannot even imagine. My heart is grateful and even though the storm raged around us I found God protecting us, giving us peace. I recently spoke to a woman in another state who told me she had an issue with her home where the septic wasn't on her property, she said it took 8 years and a senator to get it fixed, it happened to eight other families on the same block. What can I do to make fix this house? Nothing and no human being can fix it either. It's for God to fix. I've learned that I if I simply trust God turn it all over to him and do the things he expects of me while I'm waiting, that he will make a way where their is no way. In looking back, God knew we would encounter all of this, he purposely had the land not belong to the City, just like how he parted the waters for Moses, putting the land in so that the Jews could escape before anyone knew (accept God) he put the land in for me. That's right I was sued for land not owned by the City. Wow for me, little old me. He loves me that much that he carefully crafted a piece of the earth not to belong to the City. Well it really all belongs to God anyway but you know what I mean. I was so focused on the problem and I needed to focus on God. God is bigger than any government agency, any neighbor who's hell bent on hurting you, anything and everything I am facing. God is bigger than your problems and I realized, he is the answer. He is the answer to every problem. I'm excited to see what God will do next. It's amazing that the God who created the heavens & earth cares about me. It's amazing that I have ideas on what I think will happen & than God shows up in a major way, blowing away all my ideas and fixing things in a way that is better than what I could dream or imagine. What I needed was to be still and let God take over. Sometimes all we need is to just be still and know that he is God! Psalm 46:10

Prayer for peaceful nights rest

Father God, I thank you for all that you do and all that you are. I am so worried, I cannot settle my mind and I need you. Send your Holy Spirit to assist me and command your angels to guard me, Lord to watch over me and to protect me from the evil one. Satan back up off of me, I belong to Jesus and I have the right to peace as Jesus died for my right to peace. I am covered by the blood of Jesus. I am relaxed, calm, peaceful and I will sleep all night long uninterrupted. I trust you!

In Jesus Mighty Name-AMEN! or read Psalm 91

Love your enemies, Love your neighbor

I had a conversation with a person living in my community who has been living here pretty much since the beginning of this dare I say community was built. I learned something. God has placed my family in this place where people are often singled out. We are indeed not the first people for the board to one day decide that maybe for one reason or another several of these same people tried to ban together, with harmful intentions to another neighbor. What I'm about to tell you community is how you are behaving is wrong it goes against what God demands of us. Mark 12:31 The second is equally important: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' No other commandment is greater than these.". When you set out with a harmful intent, with malice in your heart you are not only blocking your own blessings from The Lord, you are not happy inside. Hurting someone else is not going to fill you up and the adrenaline rush that you experience leaves you feeling empty and not filled up. Jesus loves you so, so much and what it boils down to is that hurting another does not magnify you in a good way. The meaning of community is not to gripe about petty nonsense and hurt others. Who cares at the end of the day who has guests at the beach, or who rents? The nonsense I heard was profound and sad. What is realize it that without outing anyone or putting their names out there. I could have put everyone's first & last name and didn't because every word I have said is truth and the mound of evidence I have to back it up. I choose not to because than I am no better than them. There is so much dysfunction in this community and stupidity is contagious evidently. He has placed us where he needed us to do his work. True happiness will NOT come from repeatedly calling the police on someone and lying to hurt another. Repeatedly calling 311/911 because your feelings were hurt. They failed to realize no one did anything to them. Words are not actions. There is no justification to banning together to hurt people. Living in a place your whole life is not justification for hurting a family or hurting anyone for that matter. I feel it's really sad. Any time you plot out to cause a family harm, financial/emotional, lying repeatedly about events and go above & beyond to purposely "get someone". The Lord blocks the attack of the enemy. Isaiah 54:17 But in that coming day no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the LORD; their vindication will come from me. I, the LORD, have spoken!

The definition of community 1) a group of people living in the same place or having a particular characteristic in common. 2) a feeling of fellowship with others, as a result of sharing common attitudes, interests, and goals. The Bi-laws state that the reason this community exists was for  fellowship. The definition of fellowship is friendly association, especially with people who share one's interests.

At no point did anyone try to welcome us to the community in fellowship. My welcome was the cops being called on me for a favor I was doing for my friend by letting her park at my house her registered insured van and so began the journey. Their are so many issues in this world, in this community, that if all the energy and anger was directed at what really mattered it would just simply be a nice place to live, what's sad is it's not. Any "beach experience" has left a bad taste in my mouth. I pray for them frequently. What I could never understand is that I worked so hard to get here, than here was not what I expected. Although I Thank God, for all the blessing in my life.  I realize that I have more than most, I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, clothes on my back, children who I love & cherish, a husband who is my best friend, when I think of it I could list  a tremendous amount to be thankful for. I do understand now. God needs me here & I trust his plan and when he doesn't need us here he will move us. I stand on his promises 2 Corinthians 1:20–For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God. Matthew 19:26 which say, “With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.” Psalm 77:14 You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples. I declare this in Jesus powerful name. AMEN

My letter to the Realtor

Alex,

My house was fraudulently mis-represented. You told us that, "I have a feeling nothing is scathingly wrong with this house." You had a duty to disclose that the land housing the septic did not belong to the home we were sold but to the City of Danbury. While it's true that there was no complete and accurate a-2 survey you told us you were at town-hall and in looking at the partial A-2 that was .14 acre, your public handout was .25 acre. In fact, it was no error that the property sold to us and you could care less how it effected my husband and I. I feel you not only took advantage of the fact that we trusted you, you lead us directly to your cousins house. After speaking to several attorneys the last one said to not realize that there is more to the land you would have to be a complete idiot. I do not think that is the case. You clearly knew what you did, and for whatever reason did it anyway with no thought of my family.

You have basically ruined our lives with this action. I cannot sell my home, the financial and emotional burden that we have had to endure because of this action is unspeakable. If at any point you told us about this house we would have walked away & you knew it. We have suffered tremendously. At this point the house in unsellable. The fact that you waited until closing, when we were signing papers to tell us it had a shared well was selfish and horrible. It's legal and every time the power goes out I have no running water.

I was so angry at you, I did not have words to express what I was feeling. I was mad because you were going to have no consequence for your actions. I started to have anxiety attacks and became physically ill due to the fact I was stuck in this home with no options. My family has suffered tremendously. Due to the fact you said I could build up & out, now that I cannot do this it changes everything. This neighborhood was not a good match for us, yet you didn't care. These people are tweaked and I have needed to leave for years and yet I could not. I am holding you personally responsible for your actions. No one is ever buying this house under these circumstances.

I realize that I forgive you. I also realize that if if others do not know what you have done, God sees everything! Mat 10:26-27 (NIV) "There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the housetops."

Colossians 3:13 NIV Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

What I expect and what I and am asking is the commission back from both the sale of my this house and the sale of the condo. I feel that is more than fair. Not only have I spent $60,000.00 on repairs to this home it's unsellable. I put $32,000.00 down. I have two daughters and they are missing out on a better life because you chose not to disclose important information about this home. It's wrong Alex. I am asking you to step up & do the right thing. The heartache you have caused my family has been unbearable. We are asking you to make right the wrong you did.

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Anxiety, Stress, Panic Attacks and Sickness, The Holy Spirit is at work

If you suffer from this as many do. I have had anxiety since I was six years old accept I never understood it or recognized it as anxiety. I had a pretty traumatic childhood and a lot of abuse. I can remember laying on my bed frozen listening to sounds. Over the years I have during periods of high stress had panic attacks not just anxiety. I had no idea what I was experiencing was normal & figured I was just messed up. I always felt like I was messed up & kept it to myself. First & foremost it's your bodies way of telling you there is something that needs to be healed. I am not a therapist or a doctor and am just giving you MY testimony. It's scary, the thoughts are terrible and you can feel helpless or hopeless. I learned as much as I could about anxiety, but only after this situation caused me to get physically sick for over a year. I couldn't leave the house. I would wake up trembling. I couldn't sleep at night, by the time I fell asleep it would be some crazy hour. I learned that you can have mental anxiety or physical anxiety and you don't have to have them both at the same time. My favorite phrase to repeat "No one dies from anxiety",  so if you think you are or your thoughts tell you that it's not true. It can make you feel like you think you are crazy or loosing your mind. Crazy people don't know they are crazy by the way. You have to learn to get out of you head which can be tricky to master but it can be done. You can have attack after attack but truthfully if you don't fuel them with your thoughts they won't last long. When you have anxiety you are breathing from the chest not your diaphragm. This causes symptoms of light-headedness or feelings like you "can't breathe." You are breathing, just not properly from your stomach. Put your hands on your stomach if it's not going up & down you have to try to control your breathing. I go to this website and  use the information I felt it helpful and I bookmarked  on my phone because my thoughts would become so scattered I couldn't think straight. http://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/treatment/breathing-exercises. I never suffered with sickness like this until these people started to harass me in 2009. After so many years of abuse from Danbury and the Board members and their dysfunctional antics, the therapist said I developed PTSD. The Lord healed me from that. 

I have had all random symptoms. I felt like I couldn't breathe, my thoughts were scattered, my feet were cold, chest pain, diarrhea, felt dizzy, light headed, tingling in my neck, arms, hands, nausea, tired, depressed. I was afraid at one point to let my heartbeat too fast because it would set off an attack. What I read about someone who had the same issue accept they asked a cardiologist about it. A healthy heart is a beating heart was what the doctor said. You can become hypersensitive to your body and paying attention makes it worse. They won't explode and you won't have a heart attack. That pain for me was gas, when I drank water I burped and then laugh at myself. I started by going to my doctor and getting all my bloodwork done to rule out anything physical. I had to repeat a mantra that, I am strong, healthy & vibrant.  I have even had an attack working out.

How I learned to try to combat anxiety. I listen to the sermons on my church's app. I pray, meditate (when I say meditate I mean listening to my breathing & telling myself simple affirmations like I choose to be calm). I invite God into all aspects of my life. Prayer is earthly license for heavenly intervention. I try to eat healthy, right on time. If I can't eat on time I have snacks. I use a heating pad on my chest. I take a shower or bath. Sometimes I just move around because sitting still sometimes is worse. Since I was saved my anxiety is almost gone. From time to time I have some, but I know what to do to stop it as soon as it starts. The key in my mind is to find as many tools to put in your emotional tool box as possible. Heal your hurts. Let go of anger because no one can feel it accept you & can become toxic. Forgive- It's not that I'm letting them off the hook. I just love myself more. I am following the words Jesus said when asked about forgiveness. The most important thing is God, putting him first.

Since I was saved and baptized I have had no -ZERO panic attacks. After suffering for over a year with sickness, panic attacks and all the heartache this situation has caused, I do have some anxious thoughts or a symptom here or there maybe I start to concentrate on my breathing especially being dragged to court repeatedly and knowing that the courts are not in your favor no matter what has been a challenge. I know to manage them now so that they don't escalate and with the help of the Holy Spirit he strengthens me. Where there was anger it was melted and replaced with love. God is amazing and I am so thankful! It's not just because I am believing in God it's because his love for us surpasses anything we can imagine. I hated people. I was so angry. For the first time in my life I had experienced true hatred for the people hurting my family. My children kept me grounded so I didn't loose my temper. If you knew the old me, before I had children I would have been all over that. All of it has been removed & replaced  with a love and compassion so great I cannot express it with words.

Let me also tell you that I could not stand the thought of Catholic Church  and vowed to never go back and refused to listen when I was repeatedly suggested to go back to church. No offense Catholics. I just never had the connection and felt bored. I didn't like the idea that my girlfriends bi-racial kids could not be baptized. It shocked and hurt me. Jesus loves everyone. Yes everyone -not just white people. ALL people.  Even the tax collectors and adulterers. I thought as long as I believed in God church did not matter. It does matter. I couldn't see how until I started going and my life was forever changed. I will never stop going.
I started off with Bronchitis and Severe Anxiety Attacks due to all the stress from what the Board members did to my family. It was so bad I couldn't leave my home. I would get into the car & just cry. I didn't want my kids to see, so I tried to hide as much as I could. Some days I would wake up withy hands shaking. I was on my couch or in my bed. It was torturous. I was angry and I often felt vengeful hateful to these people. Although I didn't act on it because I have children who look to me to lead by example. No family should have to endure the constant attack we have endured. I forgive ALL of them because they are emotionally bankrupt and I heard the Holy Spirit tell me in church to forgive.

I couldn't take the medications. I was rushed to the ER on three occasions because I thought I was dying and afraid. I was continuously sick for over a year. I even had anxiety over taking the medication & was afraid to get addicted to the Xanax. I never did. I also needed to be aware so I could still be a good mom to my kids. My daughter became petrified to sleep in her own bed. All the negativity had sucked me in, sucked my family in. She is 7 but all this craziness started when she was 4, my baby, that's what hurt me the most started having anxiety attacks, stomach aches. She told me she felt afraid to die. I knew she was having anxiety attacks because I was having them. We were really suffering.

We started Christian based therapy.  The more I learned about Anxiety it helped me understand how to cope with it until God heals me. My friend showed me how to tapp. It's also known as EFT. I stopped doing it when I realized that its not Christian. God made the universe and we don't worship his creation. satan lives on Earth and anyone worshiping the Universe isn't worshiping the Lord. In case you are wondering my energy source is God and Jesus he is my Lord & savior. It was the answer I needed to replace the Xanax. It was a healing that my soul needed & she knew it. I have a few friends who saw me suffering and helped me with EFT. From the time I went to church my life changed tremendously.. The immense peace & love I feel within my soul is AMAZING! People say oh it's the people and it's the belief. NO it's God and being born again. I have the the Holy Spirit living inside of me and I feel his presence. I realize that the accuser had worked through these people to attack my family. God worked through others to bring us to him and replace what was stolen. I used tapping until I got saved and then it stopped working...Just like that...so I started to use Gods words to drive away the anxiety. I read my bible, I praise and worship. I feel the amazing peace given by the Holy Spirit and I keep it moving.

My situation is the same, yet it is completely different. My husband and I are close. We never let anything get between us and more than ever  things have become closer. I didn't think it was possible. I don't know what will happen but I have a BIG GOD! Amen.

I have started to forgive them, because Jesus is my example. I used the talent that God gave me and then I pray for the Holy Spirit to guide my words. God knows the problem before it exists and he has a plan. So far it has been amazing to watch him work, and I know his plan is far from over. I realize this place is dark and the way to make the darkness flee is to have the light enter. I also realize that God has placed us here because Holy Spirit has worked it out for us in his time. I know he said I need you there for now and when I am ready I will move you. It is about his plan and not mine. I know my God will not fail me and he will be right on time. Amen! I patiently wait for my miracle that I know that not only God will provide but that ONLY he can provide it! I thought people would help me, and I'm not saying he won't work through people because he will, but only he can fix this mess!

If you are being attacked by the accuser don't be afraid to Pray and ask for help. God answers prayers and I am walking proof.  I hope this message reaches you and helps you! Remember God is the divine healer! God Bless!