tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20002891660499316092024-03-05T16:00:25.688-05:00City of Danbury Singles Out Family Saved By Grace Through FaithMrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-48338088356669167492020-06-16T00:42:00.003-04:002021-06-03T18:02:00.449-04:00The Biggest Blessing Choose Forgiveness<div class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 3px; text-size-adjust: auto;">
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<span style="font-family: times; font-size: medium;"><span class="s1">While I had the board members from hell, the town doing favors for friends and it affected every area of my life, <span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span>I still continued to honor God. The problem is I knew God but I didn’t really know </span><span class="s1">God. The real enemy is satan and while he’s puppetting these fools, I had a choice. I could either get bitter, retaliate by sinking down to their level and make my own heart worse by acting just like them or ask God for help. I chose God. I put those people on the altar and continued to be me. I almost started to hate them, I started to get bitter and sick but then God helped me to not. In fact I forgave them though they were not sorry and I didn’t feel it. They were relentless for years. Do you know how hard that was to not retaliate? I mean truthfully the average person would have completely sided with me and pretty much does. I didn’t </span><span class="s1">compromise who I am because I’m just not that way. I have integrity and I’m not a hateful person. It almost consumed me and as time went on the wounds became almost too much to bare. If your wondering over the years I have found it’s their pattern, I have even heard stories about others who have had similar experiences caused by the board and nothing has changed accept me-I am different. I am closer to God. I trust him because I watched him shut them down, block them many times & bless me right in front of their faces. Talk about favor, woo I experience it all the time. They even admitted that they stole my beach dues money, but that’s a whole other blog story, for another day. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: times; font-size: medium;"><span class="s1">While almost everyone did the wrong thing, with a few exceptions, a few good cops that didn’t want to go along with the nonsense and they tried not to. They would just blow the situation off because they could see it was a lie and that the board was just ridiculous. As a human they thought it was stupid, but when it’s your job & your boss tells you, I can see why some compromise. I witnessed one fighting with the captain tell him it was BS & he knew it. Wow right? I made a heart decision and continued to do the right thing. How my family was treated was inexcusable, but God had a different plan. There is no doubt that they are lost. They tried to make my life very difficult at times, but in the midst of the drama I had peace, I had joy and they caused me a lot of stress, sickness and even at one point financial harm, but I put my trust in God and even when I was sick with PTSD and multiple panic attacks I kept praying. I would speak & say I am waiting for my miracle. I got it. I kept on trusting Gods words and I kept on waiting for him to move. I watched God move in my life. I watched each one go down in flames, it was amazing, but what I realized was it was their seeds they had sown & then they reaped that harvest. It wasn’t God “getting them” they got themselves. If your asking I repented for enjoying that. When you die you go in front of Jesus, he is not going to say what did so & so do..he’s going to ask me what I did even though he already knows. They will have the same fate, accept I am saved and I am getting into heaven, based on Jesus goodness and sacrifice on the cross, not my own. Jesus knows everything they did too. It didn’t pass him by, I wasn’t overlooked, in fact I was being set up for a huge flood of blessing. They will stand in front of him and account for themselves</span><span class="s1" style="font-weight: bold;">. </span></span></div>
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<span class="s3" style="font-family: times; font-size: medium;">I don’t live there anymore and I don’t have to deal with them, God did a flood of favor in my life, but mostly I realize that they have to deal with themselves and that in itself is very sad. How empty for them! God took away the little power trip they thought they had, he did it magnificently. The thing is God knew I had the problem before I even moved to this house. He didn’t cause the problem, because I trusted in him and I did things the way that he said, he was true to perform his word. He is still working on me, healing me daily and my faith is stronger than ever. Don’t get me wrong I have my moments just like everybody else. God went out of his way, to show me how much he loves me. God cares about everything I cared about, he protected me and many times he shut them down. Everything that was stolen from me physically financially emotionally he flooded me with favor and he is still flooding me. You have a choice, we can be bitter or better, but it’s our choice. God Bless, I hope you choose him. I hope you choose forgiveness. I know that some people have power and they can abuse it, but if you fill your heart with God you don’t have any room for hate unforgiveness. </span><span class="s4" style="font-size: 23px;">✝️💯</span></div>
Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-11682396966838782212018-04-23T13:12:00.009-04:002021-06-03T17:57:38.375-04:00Scripture for Spiritual Warfare<br />
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<b><u><span style="font-size: medium;">Scriptures To Speak Out-Loud And Meditate On</span></u></b></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><b><u><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></u></b></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black; font-family: times; font-size: large;"><span style="color: white;">I am a Child of the Most High God; I am Abraham’s seed; I am an heir according to the promise.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: times; font-size: medium;">When you are born again, the Holy Spirit comes to live on the inside of you. You have authority in Jesus Christ Romans 8 & Luke 10:19 <span style="text-align: justify;">I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.</span></span></div>
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Speak out-loud in a firm voice. Back-up Satan you are under my feet. Anxiety, Fear, Panic....Get out NOW in the name of Jesus Christ; I am covered by the blood
of Christ.</span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: Times; font-size: medium;"> I have yelled it on my knees sobbing and
praying for God to help me so please do not feel stupid. Attacks are scary
until you learn how to fight. </span><span style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: white; font-family: times; font-size: medium;">For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.</span><span style="font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Noto Sans", sans-serif, Arial; font-size: 16px;"> </span></span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: Times; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: Times; font-size: medium;">Print it out put it by your bed or somewhere you can read it, save it on your phone. Christ's suffering on the cross has bought you healing, you have the right to it. It became your right when Jesus died on the cross. Jesus paid for that right. If you are not saved (born again) or if you don't know where you are going when you die then click here for a prayer.</span><a href="https://divingrace.blogspot.com/2016/07/the-single-most-important-question.html" target="_blank"> <span face=""arial" , sans-serif" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 12.8px;">🙏</span></a> </div>
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you are all children of God through faith,</span></span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial;"> </span><span class="m-590073840890472309versenum"><span>27 </span></span><span class="m-590073840890472309text"><span>for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed
yourselves with Christ.</span></span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial;"></span> <span class="m-590073840890472309versenum"><span>28 </span></span><span class="m-590073840890472309text"><span>There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor
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righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There
is no difference between Jew and Gentile, for all have sinned and fall short of
the glory of God,</span><span> </span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: white;">Romans 3:22</span></span></div>
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he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the
punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.</span></span><span> </span></span></div><div class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: times; font-size: medium;">Isaiah
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<span><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: times; font-size: medium;">I
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this world. I am not abandoned; I am not left alone to figure it out all by
myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have the Holy Spirit Living
inside of me. This is true if you have been saved. If you don’t know where you
are going after you die and would like to click here for a prayer. <o:p></o:p></span><a href="https://divingrace.blogspot.com/2016/07/the-single-most-important-question.html" target="_blank"><span face=""arial" , sans-serif">🙏</span></a></span><span style="font-family: times; font-size: medium;"><span>“He
will never leave nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” </span></span><span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: times; font-size: medium;">Deutronomy
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<br />Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-6831853911045208362018-04-23T12:27:00.005-04:002021-06-03T18:12:36.442-04:00Spiritual Warfare What I Did to Combat Anxiety, Fear, Depression and PTSD<span style="font-family: times; font-size: medium;">Are you suffering from Anxiety, depression, panic
attacks, PTSD? I was and it was caused by the Board members in AV and the City, but The Lord has healed me and this is what I did to help myself, with Gods
guidance. I went to the ER twice thinking I was dying and that I couldn’t
breathe. I was getting enough oxygen, in fact, when I asked the nurse she
said,” Sweetie you couldn’t get more oxygen if you tried”. Lol I was like well
I feel like I cannot breathe, but I was breathing, but I was breathing from my
chest instead of from your abdomen, (<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span>nobody told me
that in the ER</span></i> ) and that made my lungs feel tight. I thought I was
having a heart attack <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span>(I had chest
pain)</span></i><span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">. It was gas drank some water and began to burp. Lol I was
concentrating on my breathing, and my heart I was afraid to let it beat too
fast. I had bronchitis, PTSD, severe anxiety and panic attacks that seemed to go
on one after another. Don’t be afraid to talk to a counselor I recommend a
Christian counselor. I am not a doctor, I am just a person who’s been badly
bruised and leaned on the Lord to heal me. If you are reading this I hope my
experience can help you to fight and to heal. God has set an end date to the
issue and what I realize is that he will deal with them in his own way. They
will be accountable in front of Jesus just as I will, so I can only do what is
right in Gods sight. I have also had Pastors with an altar of fire pray for me because it matters who prays for you. </span><br />
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I do not like medications for me personally. That is not only a decision you have
to make after speaking with your doctor, find out the side effects and I have tried them, I do not like
them. I was told at the ER you had a panic attack here is some Xanax follow up
with counselor. That left me upset, and no better. I didn’t want heavy
medication like Xanax they are highly addictive and how was being high supposed
to help <i><span>(My thought</span></i>)? I have
not taken medication in years although I did in the beginning and again my
thought was I’m high how does this help and my situation causing me torment was
still the same. I trusted the Lord to heal me while at first he only partially
healed me enough to not take medicines he finally said I was healed. Friend
there is an end-date to your struggles, God loves you just the way you are all
of your brokenness and you can manage this. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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physical exam to rule out and medical conditions so you know you are not having
a heart attack and you are not dying. Stress can cause many things. </b>Keep
walking, keep it moving if you can get used to the symptoms of panic <i><span>(and there are over 100)</span></i> and still keep
moving you can stop focusing on your breathing and/or your physical body. I
read of a heart doctor who told a patient after a heart attack healthy heart is
a beating heart. Our hearts are made to have a rapid heartbeat at times, it
happens when we are moving a lot, eating, having anxious thoughts but most of
us do not recognize it, unless you have anxiety, then you recognize it. Ignore
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am I anxious? Did I eat? Is it hormonal? Is my sleep disrupted? Have I drunk
enough water? You can have allergies with clogged ears and that can set off a
panic attack. I once had bronchitis and it was setting off panic attacks. Check
for an imbalance and see if you can fix it. Journal your anxious thoughts, then
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confessing? - </b>This <b>anxiety,
depression etc.…</b> <b>is not yours</b> do
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anxiety. Do not take ownership. We must always remember to speak life. Keep
confessing that you are healed even during a panic attack. Do not verbalize
your symptoms as if they are sticking around. <b>Anxiety is a liar!</b> It can cause you to have crazy thoughts,
thoughts that make you think you are crazy or going to go insane, but don’t
worry you are not-Crazy people don’t know they are crazy. Remember Satan is a
liar <span>John 8:44 </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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This anxiety will not be with us forever and we can and
will learn to manage it until the Lord heals us completely. Healing is a
promise to destroy every disease including mental illness, anxiety, depression,
panic attack, PTSD it is all included. Jesus paid the price for all of our sins;
he took them upon himself and crushed them all at the cross. These panic
attacks are actually a spiritual attack. We become frightened, and/or frozen we
cannot think straight and our patience becomes thin. When this happens we are
at war and at war our weapons become our words and our prayers. <i>Sometimes all you can muster is a whisper,</i>
<i>but that is all you need</i>. (Rachelle Bleakly)
Just Say JESUS!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Panic attacks stop quickly if you can get out of your
head. It was explained to me by a doctor that it’s like the ocean, once it gets
stirred up the waves come crashing in, over & over but if you calm the
waves they will slow down and eventually stop. Try to stop the panic in its
tracks, it helps. Get up move around,
wash the dishes, take a hot bath, take a walk; nobody will even know you are
having a panic attack because they are so focused on their own selves. Sometimes
your brain is going too fast so you cannot read, listen to the bible app watch
a TV sermon or a podcast on your phone. Same goes for depression move a muscle
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I was angry-I hated the Board members and the City, I
couldn’t even bring myself to pray for them at first. Anger will eat you up on
the inside- It causes you to be anxious so<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> FORGIVE. </b><span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Forgiveness</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> </b><span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">isn't about letting anyone get away with anything it's setting yourself free</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">. </b><span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">What I did was allow the Lord to work in my life by doing it his way. I understand some situations you just don't feel it. Ask God to help you and he will. </span>I’m grateful for
their disgusting behavior, because now I can be a light in someone else’s
darkness. God has blessed me for every horrible thing that the enemy has done
through these people and I am so in love with Jesus. The Lord makes your enemies
your footstool and here it is in this blog. Don’t get me wrong they aren’t
sorry, one iota, they were still try to attack my family, even as of last
month, but I now know who I am. Who I am in Christ, I am a child of the Most
High God. He is more powerful and is in control of my life. The Lord has
blocked the enemy from trying to destroy my life through these people and when
I move out from this neighborhood I will be grateful for ALL the Lord has done
in my life in-spite of them. It doesn’t mean what they did was acceptable or
that I want to hang out with them, It means I love myself and my Father enough
to let it go. It also means I pray for them, even though they aren’t sorry. I
keep giving it to him and he walks me through forgiveness. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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on a bed or flat on your back it helps to watch your stomach rise and fall.
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panic attack or at the beginning when you are concentrating on your breathing. </b><b>Speak this I
command my breathing to be normal, into my abdomen and not into my chest right
now in the name of Jesus Christ-Amen </b>If you are having trouble
concentrating as long as you exhale more than you inhale you should stabilize
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If you are suffering from PTSD<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">-Every damaged cell in my body I command you to be repaired right now
in the name of Jesus Christ-Amen </b>repeat, repeat repeat,<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> </b>in the car, shower, cleaning. Mumble it say it before bed and when you wake up. </span></div>
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Say it out-loud in a firm voice. <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Back-up Satan you are under my feet. Spirit of Anxiety, Fear, Panic, PTSD </b>GET OUT NOW in the name of Jesus Christ; I am covered by the blood
of Christ.<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> I have yelled it on my knees sobbing and
praying for God to help me so please do not feel stupid. Attacks are scary
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This question will be asked at least once in your lifetime. That question is who do you say Jesus is? The question to ask yourself is if you were to die tomorrow where would you spend eternity? Not sure...Think that all your good deeds or the way you lived gets you into heaven. Think again. Maybe you think if you live a certain way that you will come back until you get it right? Isn't that depressing? None of us is perfect, so how could we possibly think we could ever achieve what only Jesus achieved? For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast. <b>Ephesians 2:8-9</b> We all sin, ever lie, it's a sin, say the "F" word, still a sin. We were born into sin, (Adam & Eve) <span>John 14:6 Jesus told him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me. </span>Because God is so holy and we are not- all sin is sin. John 3:5 <span>Jesus answered, "Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. </span></span></div>
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Maybe you are mad at God or think he's mad at you? Watch this amazing sermon by <b><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1G0FxbQU4Q" target="_blank">Todd White</a>. (Click his name to see the sermon)</b> Believe in science. Science actually proves the bible story after story. Who do you think created science? As humans we believe in text books, text books are written and re-written & we believe what is in them. What is re-written is changed or corrected. The bible has never been changed or corrected. The bible is not only a book of instructions for every situation that will ever arise, but it's Gods words for us. <span style="font-family: "uictfonttextstylebody"; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">The bible is inspired by God and yes </span><span style="font-family: "uictfonttextstylebody"; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">flawed humans wrote accurate records of Gods dealings with mankind.</span><span style="font-family: "uictfonttextstylebody"; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"> </span><span style="font-family: "uictfonttextstylebody";"> Do you know any other kind of humans? I don't. </span><span style="font-family: "uictfonttextstylebody"; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Inspired by God means God breathed. God is supernatural. If you are not sure about it, ask God to reveal himself to you by speaking to you though the bible. </span>Everything God does is because he loves us so very much. God cannot lie and his words are the truth. <span style="font-family: "uictfonttextstylebody"; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><i>Education has not brought enlightenment to the world. Has education given you personal peace and kept you from experiencing personal pain and broken relationships? Has science solved the deepest problems of our souls? No it certainly has not. Yes we live longer or more comfortably but you will still face death.</i> (<b>Isaiah 53 Explained Mitch Glaser). </b>You can even repeat mantras that make you feel better temporarily but ultimately you will not gain true peace unless you know Jesus the Messiah as your personal Lord & Savior. </span></span></div>
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God is madly in love with you, he's not mad at you or trying to get you & he's always with us, you can ignore him, even reject him & he never leaves us. How do I know? John 3:16 <span>"For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. Deuteronomy 31:6 </span><span>So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you." He is faithful! He is the best Father you could ever get. Maybe your earthly father didn't love you properly or you feel alone. Maybe you are afraid to trust. Maybe your heart is so broken you just gave up. God is a heart doctor and he can heal anything you have. He doesn't want religion or religious rituals, he wants you! He wants a relationship everyday all day for eternity. Maybe someone religious was living wrong and that changed your mind or a religious leader did the wrong thing. God is not people, people are imperfect, God is perfect and sinless. He would never hurt us in fact, everything he does is for us. <b>Romans 8:31-32</b> <span class="text Rom-8-31" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">31 </span>What, then, shall we say in response to these things?<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-28148A" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-28148A" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span> If God is for us,<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-28148B" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-28148B" title="See cross-reference B">B</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span> who can be against us?<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-28148C" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-28148C" title="See cross-reference C">C</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span></span><span class="text Rom-8-32" id="en-NIV-28149" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">32 </span>He who did not spare his own Son,<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-28149D" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-28149D" title="See cross-reference D">D</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span> but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?</span> </span></span></div>
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Lord today I give you my life, come into my heart and wash me clean. I repent of my sins. Send your holy spirit to live inside of me. Jesus, I declare that you are the messiah and the Lord of my life. I acknowledge that Jesus is the Messiah that he died on the cross for my sins and rose again on the Third day so I could be made right with God In Jesus name Amen</span></div>
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Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-5248680433520225812016-01-26T15:30:00.000-05:002016-08-17T23:36:18.104-04:00Be StillI have spoken to over 30 attorneys, the news, local papers, senators, the FBI, Common Counsil, State Troopers, wrote the mayor 3 times only to get sued, fought crooked insurance companies you name it just about anyone you can think of in the chain of command that is supposed to help a family. What I found out is the system is broken. Most importantly I fought instead of quitting! God is fighting for me and that gives me peace. One place passes you to another shrugging off any accountability and covering for their corrupted counter-parts. It's disgusting! There was<b> not one decent person</b> who cared. I found out that God loves me. I found out that he is a God of justice. If you have a small town like Danbury where everyone is doing favors for each-other but not for me, than you have absolutely no rights. Pretty much it's corrupt from the bottom to the top and no one cared to help. It was awful and overwhelming. I realized that ALL power comes from up above. That's right, my Father, (Heavenly Father). My father owns it ALL and all power comes from above! I am now watching God work on my behalf in amazing ways. I find peace in him & knowing that he is a God of justice I have faith that not only is he going to change this crazy situation around, he is going to bring us out better than we were before. I will continue to stay in Faith, standing on Gods promises and living my life fully & joyfully. God promises double for your trouble (Job 42:10) -whew I'm about to get a blessing so wonderful that I cannot even imagine. My heart is grateful and even though the storm raged around us I found God protecting us, giving us peace. I recently spoke to a woman in another state who told me she had an issue with her home where the septic wasn't on her property, she said it took 8 years and a senator to get it fixed, it happened to eight other families on the same block. What can I do to make fix this house? Nothing and no human being can fix it either. It's for God to fix. I've learned that I if I simply trust God turn it all over to him and do the things he expects of me while I'm waiting, that he will make a way where their is no way. In looking back, God knew we would encounter all of this, he purposely had the land not belong to the City, just like how he parted the waters for Moses, putting the land in so that the Jews could escape before anyone knew (accept God) he put the land in for me. That's right I was sued for land not owned by the City. Wow for me, little old me. He loves me that much that he carefully crafted a piece of the earth not to belong to the City. Well it really all belongs to God anyway but you know what I mean. I was so focused on the problem and I needed to focus on God. God is bigger than any government agency, any neighbor who's hell bent on hurting you, anything and everything I am facing. God is bigger than your problems and I realized, he is the answer. He is the answer to every problem. I'm excited to see what God will do next. It's amazing that the God who created the heavens & earth cares about me. It's amazing that I have ideas on what I think will happen & than God shows up in a major way, blowing away all my ideas and fixing things in a way that is better than what I could dream or imagine. What I needed was to be still and let God take over. Sometimes all we need is to just be still and know that he is God! Psalm 46:10Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-64054034564998738852015-02-05T01:07:00.001-05:002018-04-23T13:18:39.366-04:00Prayer for peaceful nights restFather God, I thank you for all that you do and all that you are. I am so worried, I cannot settle my mind and I need you. Send your Holy Spirit to assist me and command your angels to guard me, Lord to watch over me and to protect me from the evil one. Satan back up off of me, I belong to Jesus and I have the right to peace as Jesus died for my right to peace. I am covered by the blood of Jesus. I am relaxed, calm, peaceful and I will sleep all night long u<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%;">ninterrupted. I trust you!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%;">In Jesus Mighty Name-AMEN! or read Psalm 91</span>Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-41920032763204373722014-06-29T22:38:00.001-04:002014-06-29T22:49:54.141-04:00Love your enemies, Love your neighborI had a conversation with a person living in my community who has been living here pretty much since the beginning of this dare I say community was built. I learned something. God has placed my family in this place where people are often singled out. We are indeed not the first people for the board to one day decide that maybe for one reason or another several of these same people tried to ban together, with harmful intentions to another neighbor. What I'm about to tell you community is how you are behaving is wrong it goes against what God demands of us. Mark 12:31 <span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The second is equally important: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' No other commandment is greater than these."</span>. When you set out with a harmful intent, with malice in your heart you are not only blocking your own blessings from The Lord, you are not happy inside. Hurting someone else is not going to fill you up and the adrenaline rush that you experience leaves you feeling empty and not filled up. Jesus loves you so, so much and what it boils down to is that hurting another does not magnify you in a good way. The meaning of community is not to gripe about petty nonsense and hurt others. Who cares at the end of the day who has guests at the beach, or who rents? The nonsense I heard was profound and sad. What is realize it that without outing anyone or putting their names out there. I could have put everyone's first & last name and didn't because every word I have said is truth and the mound of evidence I have to back it up. I choose not to because than I am no better than them. There is so much dysfunction in this community and stupidity is contagious evidently. He has placed us where he needed us to do his work. True happiness will NOT come from repeatedly calling the police on someone and lying to hurt another. Repeatedly calling 311/911 because your feelings were hurt. They failed to realize no one did anything to them. Words are not actions. There is no justification to banning together to hurt people. Living in a place your whole life is not justification for hurting a family or hurting anyone for that matter. I feel it's really sad. Any time you plot out to cause a family harm, financial/emotional, lying repeatedly about events and go above & beyond to purposely "get someone". The Lord blocks the attack of the enemy. Isaiah 54:17 But in that coming day no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the LORD; their vindication will come from me. I, the LORD, have spoken!<br />
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The definition of community 1) a group of people living in the same place or having a particular characteristic in common. 2) a feeling of fellowship with others, as a result of sharing common attitudes, interests, and goals. The Bi-laws state that the reason this community exists was for fellowship. The definition of fellowship is <span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">friendly association, especially with people who share one's interests.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">At no point did anyone try to welcome us to the community in fellowship. My welcome was the cops being called on me for a favor I was doing for my friend by letting her park at my house her registered insured van and so began the journey. Their are so many issues in this world, in this community, that if all the energy and anger was directed at what really mattered it would just simply be a nice place to live, what's sad is it's not. Any "beach experience" has left a bad taste in my mouth. I pray for them frequently. What I could never understand is that I worked so hard to get here, than here was not what I expected. Although I Thank God, for all the blessing in my life. I realize that I have more than most, I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, clothes on my back, children who I love & cherish, a husband who is my best friend, when I think of it I could list a tremendous amount to be thankful for. I do understand now. God needs me here & I trust his plan and when he doesn't need us here he will move us. I stand on his promises </span><strong style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); border: 0px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">2 Corinthians 1:20–For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God. </strong><strong style="border: 0px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Matthew 19:26 which say, “With men this is impossible; but with God all things are</strong><b><span style="border: 0px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"> possible.” Psalm 77:14 </span><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples. I declare this in Jesus powerful name. AMEN</span></b>Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-26212821389067814852014-05-10T09:46:00.003-04:002015-02-19T19:49:39.151-05:00My letter to the Realtor <span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Alex,<br /><br />My house was fraudulently mis-represented. You told us that, "I have a feeling nothing is scathingly wrong with this house." You had a duty to disclose that the land housing the septic did not belong to <a href="x-apple-data-detectors://0" x-apple-data-detectors-result="0" x-apple-data-detectors-type="address" x-apple-data-detectors="true">the home we were sold </a>but to the City of Danbury. While it's true that there was no complete and accurate a-2 survey you told us you were at town-hall and in looking at the partial A-2 that was .14 acre, your public handout was .25 acre. In fact, it was no error that the property sold to us and you could care less how it effected my husband and I. I feel you not only took advantage of the fact that we trusted you, you lead us directly to your cousins house. After speaking to several attorneys the last one said to not realize that there is more to the land you would have to be a complete idiot. I do not think that is the case. You clearly knew what you did, and for whatever reason did it anyway with no thought of my family.<br /><br />You have basically ruined our lives with this action. I cannot sell my home, the financial and emotional burden that we have had to endure because of this action is unspeakable. If at any point you told us about this house we would have walked away & you knew it. We have suffered tremendously. At this point the house in unsellable. The fact that you waited until closing, when we were signing papers to tell us it had a shared well was selfish and horrible. It's legal and every time the power goes out I have no running water.<br /><br />I was so angry at you, I did not have words to express what I was feeling. I was mad because you were going to have no consequence for your actions. I started to have anxiety attacks and became physically ill due to the fact I was stuck in this home with no options. My family has suffered tremendously. Due to the fact you said I could build up & out, now that I cannot do this it changes everything. </span>This neighborhood was not a good match for us, yet you didn't care. These people are tweaked and I have needed to leave for years and yet I could not. I am holding you personally responsible for your actions. No one is ever buying this house under these circumstances.<br />
<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br />I realize that I forgive you. I also realize that if if others do not know what you have done, God sees everything! Mat 10:26-27 (NIV) "There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the housetops."<br /><br />Colossians <a href="x-apple-data-detectors://1" x-apple-data-detectors-result="1" x-apple-data-detectors-type="calendar-event" x-apple-data-detectors="true">3:13</a> NIV Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.<br /><br />What I expect and what I and am asking is the commission back from both the sale of my this house and the sale of the condo. I feel that is more than fair. Not only have I spent $60,000.00 on repairs to this home it's unsellable. I put $32,000.00 down. I have two daughters and they are missing out on a better life because you chose not to disclose important information about this home. It's wrong Alex. I am asking you to step up & do the right thing. The heartache you have caused my family has been unbearable. We are asking you to make right the wrong you did.</span>Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-90948989290805629632014-04-25T10:59:00.001-04:002014-04-25T10:59:59.132-04:00Please Sign Our Petition Today We March Tomorrow We VoteHere is the petition I created. Please sign it.<br />
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<a href="http://www.thepetitionsite.com/518/408/247/we-want-the-land-that-houses-our-septic-so-that-we-can-sell-our-home-not-a-land-use-agreement/?taf_id=10984536#" target="_blank">Petition</a>Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-77131292169663407722014-03-25T10:20:00.002-04:002021-06-03T18:25:48.501-04:00Anxiety, Stress, Panic Attacks and Sickness, The Holy Spirit is at workIf you suffer from this as many do. I have had anxiety since I was six years old accept I never understood it or recognized it as anxiety. I had a pretty traumatic childhood and a lot of abuse. I can remember laying on my bed frozen listening to sounds. Over the years I have during periods of high stress had panic attacks not just anxiety. I had no idea what I was experiencing was normal & figured I was just messed up. I always felt like I was messed up & kept it to myself. First & foremost it's your bodies way of telling you there is something that needs to be healed. I am not a therapist or a doctor and am just giving you MY testimony. It's scary, the thoughts are terrible and you can feel helpless or hopeless. I learned as much as I could about anxiety, but only after this situation caused me to get physically sick for over a year. I couldn't leave the house. I would wake up trembling. I couldn't sleep at night, by the time I fell asleep it would be some crazy hour. I learned that you can have mental anxiety or physical anxiety and you don't have to have them both at the same time. My favorite phrase to repeat "No one dies from anxiety", so if you think you are or your thoughts tell you that it's not true. It can make you feel like you think you are crazy or loosing your mind. Crazy people don't know they are crazy by the way. You have to learn to get out of you head which can be tricky to master but it can be done. You can have attack after attack but truthfully if you don't fuel them with your thoughts they won't last long. When you have anxiety you are breathing from the chest not your diaphragm. This causes symptoms of light-headedness or feelings like you "can't breathe." You are breathing, just not properly from your stomach. Put your hands on your stomach if it's not going up & down you have to try to control your breathing. I go to this website and use the information I felt it helpful and I bookmarked on my phone because my thoughts would become so scattered I couldn't think straight. <a href="http://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/treatment/breathing-exercises" target="_blank">http://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/treatment/breathing-exercises</a>. I never suffered with sickness like this until these people started to harass me in 2009. After so many years of abuse from Danbury and the Board members and their dysfunctional antics, the therapist said I developed PTSD. The Lord healed me from that. <br />
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I have had all random symptoms. I felt like I couldn't breathe, my thoughts were scattered, my feet were cold, chest pain, diarrhea, felt dizzy, light headed, tingling in my neck, arms, hands, nausea, tired, depressed. I was afraid at one point to let my heartbeat too fast because it would set off an attack. What I read about someone who had the same issue accept they asked a cardiologist about it. A healthy heart is a beating heart was what the doctor said. You can become hypersensitive to your body and paying attention makes it worse. They won't explode and you won't have a heart attack. That pain for me was gas, when I drank water I burped and then laugh at myself. I started by going to my doctor and getting all my bloodwork done to rule out anything physical. I had to repeat a mantra that, I am strong, healthy & vibrant. I have even had an attack working out.<br />
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How I learned to try to combat anxiety. I listen to the sermons on my church's app. I pray, meditate (when I say meditate I mean listening to my breathing & telling myself simple affirmations like I choose to be calm). I invite God into all aspects of my life. Prayer is earthly license for heavenly intervention. I try to eat healthy, right on time. If I can't eat on time I have snacks. I use a heating pad on my chest. I take a shower or bath. Sometimes I just move around because sitting still sometimes is worse. Since I was saved my anxiety is almost gone. From time to time I have some, but I know what to do to stop it as soon as it starts. The key in my mind is to find as many tools to put in your emotional tool box as possible. Heal your hurts. Let go of anger because no one can feel it accept you & can become toxic. Forgive- It's not that I'm letting them off the hook. I just love myself more. I am following the words Jesus said when asked about forgiveness. The most important thing is God, putting him first.<br />
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Since I was saved and baptized I have had no -ZERO panic attacks. After suffering for over a year with sickness, panic attacks and all the heartache this situation has caused, I do have some anxious thoughts or a symptom here or there maybe I start to concentrate on my breathing especially being dragged to court repeatedly and knowing that the courts are not in your favor no matter what has been a challenge. I know to manage them now so that they don't escalate and with the help of the Holy Spirit he strengthens me. Where there was anger it was melted and replaced with love. God is amazing and I am so thankful! It's not just because I am believing in God it's because his love for us surpasses anything we can imagine. I hated people. I was so angry. For the first time in my life I had experienced true hatred for the people hurting my family. My children kept me grounded so I didn't loose my temper. If you knew the old me, before I had children I would have been all over that. All of it has been removed & replaced with a love and compassion so great I cannot express it with words.<br />
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Let me also tell you that I could not stand the thought of Catholic Church and vowed to never go back and refused to listen when I was repeatedly suggested to go back to church. No offense Catholics. I just never had the connection and felt bored. I didn't like the idea that my girlfriends bi-racial kids could not be baptized. It shocked and hurt me. Jesus loves everyone. Yes everyone -not just white people. ALL people. Even the tax collectors and adulterers. I thought as long as I believed in God church did not matter. It does matter. I couldn't see how until I started going and my life was forever changed. I will never stop going.<br />
I started off with Bronchitis and Severe Anxiety Attacks due to all the stress from what the Board members did to my family. It was so bad I couldn't leave my home. I would get into the car & just cry. I didn't want my kids to see, so I tried to hide as much as I could. Some days I would wake up withy hands shaking. I was on my couch or in my bed. It was torturous. I was angry and I often felt vengeful hateful to these people. Although I didn't act on it because I have children who look to me to lead by example. No family should have to endure the constant attack we have endured. I forgive <b>ALL</b> of them because they are emotionally bankrupt and I heard the Holy Spirit tell me in church to forgive.<br />
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I couldn't take the medications. I was rushed to the ER on three occasions because I thought I was dying and afraid. I was continuously sick for over a year. I even had anxiety over taking the medication & was afraid to get addicted to the Xanax. I never did. I also needed to be aware so I could still be a good mom to my kids. My daughter became petrified to sleep in her own bed. All the negativity had sucked me in, sucked my family in. She is 7 but all this craziness started when she was 4, my baby, that's what hurt me the most started having anxiety attacks, stomach aches. She told me she felt afraid to die. I knew she was having anxiety attacks because I was having them. We were really suffering.<br />
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We started Christian based therapy. The more I learned about Anxiety it helped me understand how to cope with it until God heals me. My friend showed me how to tapp. It's also known as EFT. I stopped doing it when I realized that its not Christian. God made the universe and we don't worship his creation. satan lives on Earth and anyone worshiping the Universe isn't worshiping the Lord. In case you are wondering my energy source is God and Jesus he is my Lord & savior. It was the answer I needed to replace the Xanax. It was a healing that my soul needed & she knew it. I have a few friends who saw me suffering and helped me with EFT. From the time I went to church my life changed tremendously.. The immense peace & love I feel within my soul is AMAZING! People say oh it's the people and it's the belief. NO it's God and being born again. I have the the Holy Spirit living inside of me and I feel his presence. I realize that the accuser had worked through these people to attack my family. God worked through others to bring us to him and replace what was stolen. I used tapping until I got saved and then it stopped working...Just like that...so I started to use Gods words to drive away the anxiety. I read my bible, I praise and worship. I feel the amazing peace given by the Holy Spirit and I keep it moving.<br />
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My situation is the same, yet it is completely different. My husband and I are close. We never let anything get between us and more than ever things have become closer. I didn't think it was possible. I don't know what will happen but I have a BIG GOD! Amen.<br />
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I have started to forgive them, because Jesus is my example. I used the talent that God gave me and then I pray for the Holy Spirit to guide my words. God knows the problem before it exists and he has a plan. So far it has been amazing to watch him work, and I know his plan is far from over. I realize this place is dark and the way to make the darkness flee is to have the light enter. I also realize that God has placed us here because Holy Spirit has worked it out for us in his time. I know he said I need you there for now and when I am ready I will move you. It is about his plan and not mine. I know my God will not fail me and he will be right on time. Amen! I patiently wait for my miracle that I know that not only God will provide but that ONLY he can provide it! I thought people would help me, and I'm not saying he won't work through people because he will, but only he can fix this mess!<br />
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If you are being attacked by the accuser don't be afraid to Pray and ask for help. God answers prayers and I am walking proof. I hope this message reaches you and helps you! Remember God is the divine healer! God Bless!Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-4194824698822045112014-03-24T15:52:00.002-04:002014-03-24T15:52:34.592-04:00My Letter to Common CounselAfter dealing with lawyer after lawyer I was instructed to write a letter to Common Counsel. I did this. I sent it and it was received February 4th (signed for by the City). Here it is ...
Attention Common Counsel:
I pray for Gods favor as you read this it's softens your heart & that you listen with an open heart & mind. Then you take action to do the right thing and give us our land for $1.
I bought a home in 2005 that was grossly misrepresented to my husband & I. I'm sure by now you all already know who we are and if you don't than I'm a little shocked. Just being honest.
I asked for help in 2009. I am asking for help today and even if you don't like my husband I'm asking you is it justified to punish my children and keep them from having a better life based on that fact? If the City chooses to not sell my land back that it mistakenly purchased for $1 in 1970, that houses my septic, than I am forced into a position of not being able to sell my home. My home should have never have been sold to me under these circumstances and I will not be able to pursue my family's dream of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness as we were promised by the Constitution and the City of Danbury will be the direct and only cause of that fact.
I was sued after asking for help. I forgive those involved with this intentional and callus action. I was sued for property that does not in fact belong to the City. I was secondly sued for "a driveway" that according to the legal definition is in fact not a driveway. I am simply asking you to honor the oath you take as an elected official to imagine that someone was doing this to your daughters and mother. Would you not react in anger. Jesse James lost his mind over it..Taking someone's land has been the cause of wars & destruction of society's so you can imagine the emotional pain it's cause us.
If your experience was to find so much happiness and Joy that you found your dream home, started a family and then you worked ALL your life to get to a position that you earned with your sweat and hard work.....To find out that because someone is judging you for things that you did in your past but changed your life around and became the person society demands you to be....yet you get punished repeatedly for doing all the right things. Put yourself for a moment in those shoes. For those of you who have done things that you regret and cannot take back then you are human just like my husband.
I on the other hand have never as much gotten a speeding ticket. I do not take the loose candy in the store and I am a Christian woman who believes that people deserve second chances in life, that's why I married my husband. I am a small business owner and I give back to the community. My children are seven and three. They no longer sleep alone because they are afraid. We are all in therapy for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder due to the direct actions of the people involved in trying to force us to leave our home & yet also forcing us to NOT be able to move. My seven year old draws pictures in therapy of my husband in hand cuffs with tears streaming down his face.
I cannot achieve a better life for my family because I cannot sell my home. By law it says, by Adverse possession the land belongs to me.
Property Owned in Proprietary Capacity (3 Am Jur 2d Adverse Possession § 271)
Some jurisdictions distinguish between property that is held in a governmental capacity and that which is owned by a governmental unit in its proprietary capacity. In these jurisdictions, the general rule is that land or property of a municipality that is not held for a public use, but is held in a proprietary or business capacity, may be acquired by adverse possession, unless there is a statute that establishes a different rule.
There is no purpose for The City to possess ownership over the land. It's my yard where my children play. My fence was forced to be taken down and if either one of my children go after a ball or fall in the wrong way, they can be seriously hurt or killed by a speeding car. In fact, if the City continues to claim possession of the land and decides that it wants to keep claiming possession that I'm forced to stay in an unhealthy environment for my children and my sanity. This land is not a right-of-way and has never been and could never be. It's a yard that belongs to a family and has always belonged to a family. The septic has been in the land since 1945, pre-existing non-conforming and has been in there since. In the zip code 06811, there isn't even running City Water, so the perspective of "widening the road", let's face it, it's not going to happen. Putting politics to the side, the City has no need for my yard where my kids play or my septic system. Even with a "land use agreement". I cannot sell my home. There is no common sense reason to claim possession of the land for The City. In fact it's financially more beneficial to get the property tax money on the land for eternity that it is now not collecting.
What I'm asking is, What do you plan on doing to make this right for my family, for a seven & three year old girl who are crammed in a 9x11 bedroom, with neighbors who frighten them. My three year old got in an elevator with an officer and began shaking, she then had an accident in her pants & she's potty trained for some time.
Please even if you cannot forgive or just choose the side of the person you think is a "nice guy" because you see them everyday, or they smile at you at the water cooler. I forgive that because my God told me that's what I'm supposed to do as a human being. I am asking you to have Mercy on my innocent children. My husband & my only goal is to have a better life for our children. That is why we moved to this neighborhood. We have earned the right to live here too. My husband is a good Christian man, he tried in a wrong way to defend his family when they were attacked for no reason. If you were in his shoes would you try to verbally defend your family. What if you are arrested based on your past & not real events. How would you feel then? Would you lash out, get angry, curse at the people lying about you. Would it be right? Would it be justified? I encourage you to come meet me. Take a look for yourself, with your own eyes at what has been taken from my children.
Please give us our land back for $1. What are going to do to make it right for a family?
Sincerely,
Hollene Gohn
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As I write this letter I say a prayer for you because I don't know if you realize the depth of what you have done to my family, or even sadder even care.....especially my children. You have lied, plotted, even stole from my family. You have caused chaos and havoc in my kids life and I want to say Thank You. Due to all of your horrible, negative, dysfunctional behavior and your intent to harm my family, we are stronger. I am wiser, my children are healthier emotionally and my cup runneth over. God uses ALL things to create good and he did. God was so good he not only blocked all the hurt you intentionally tried to cause but he blessed my family abundantly as a result of it. When Jesus said when asked the question, How many times should I let me neighbor sin against me, Jesus replied 490. I have turned my cheek over & over because Jesus said I should when my human instinct was other than turning my cheek. My husband has shown an incredible amount of self-control and truthfully I have too. My family has experienced above & beyond bullying, being singled out & no one should ever have to experience such horrible actions intentionally inflicted on us. You no longer can effect us or hurt us, even if you continue on the same destructive path you have been on than I will let you know My God is bigger than you & will shut you down every time. He has & will.<br />
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The word community definition is a group of people living in the same place or having a particular characteristic in common. What's sad is that we have nothing in common. I would never have done any of the things you attempted to do to my family. I teach my children not to lie, that it's wrong. I teach my kids we do not intentionally hurt others. I also show them by example that I am the better person by simply not engaging in the dysfunction. My husband and I worked our butts off to get to where we are in life and we did not attack anyone, we defended ourselves and we had every right. It was Justified. We have earned the right to live wherever we choose to live. If you are not happy with that than maybe you should do some soul searching & figure out what's missing inside of yourself. You did not have the right to do the things you have done, they were inexcusable in fact it's downright devious behavior. We began to be sucked in to this behavior and constantly being surrounded by your negativity had caused us to become angry just like you.<br />
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I want you to know, even though I know you are not sorry, I forgive you anyway. I often stop & pray for you because it's very sad to live in anger everyday & all of your actions show me that you are very sad and emotionally bankrupt inside. Happy, normal people do not plot to hurt their neighbors, they do not lie to police, insurance companies or go out of their way to run someone out of his own home. I pray that God finds his way into your lives. Where their was pure hatred I now feel compassion. Where their was rage I now feel love. Thank you God for listening to my prayers, calling me back to you. Thank you God for blocking all the attack of the enemy and for pouring your favor over my children who now have an unshakeable faith. Lord you have brought my husband & I even closer to one another which I didn't think was possible. Thank you God for your shield of protection.<br />
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I heard from 3 different people on seven occasions to go back to church. I ignored it until the fifth or sixth time. Then I realized God was giving me a message. I was praying for a while for him to take my anger and to heal my anxiety. I knew of God, but didn't know God I did and was hesitant until I got there . I felt like the sermon was for me, I cried through the whole thing. The next week I brought my family and we got saved. I got saved when I was young but I kept running from God. HE patiently waited and pursued me. The very next week we got baptized. Since then I have almost no anxiety. I do have some here & there but only physical anxiety not mental anxiety. I have a peace I have never felt before in my life. It's amazing. If I am not supposed to raise these funds then I know God has a different plan for me & that we are supposed to get something better. I know it will be taken care of & somehow it will work out for our family. I know it's not my plan but his. I completely surrender to Gods plan for my life.<br />
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I know now that God was pursuing me the whole time. This was only a situation that the Lord could handle and he did. It was a miracle. It was too big for men but not too big for the Lord.Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-80536161477286976212014-01-17T18:23:00.001-05:002018-04-23T13:18:02.349-04:00Check Out our Facebook PageThis is a link to our facebook page.<br />
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<a href="https://www.facebook.com/familyg4/" target="_blank">https://www.facebook.com/familyg4/</a>Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-78579018019829534362013-10-31T15:08:00.001-04:002016-01-26T15:38:48.649-05:00Bias Cops Harass Us Again<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/5MA524J3E9g" width="480"></iframe><br /></span>
<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Bias Cops Harass us again-Arrested 53 days later with a warrant. The old phrase you, Can't Beat City Hall. Well lets' just sat that. What I wonder is if this guy is ok down deep in his soul with not coming on equal protection grounds. Does it feel justified or does he just not feel anything but sad inside? Both statements are conflicting which shows lying. How do you proceed when you have been an officer for many, many years when their is a conflict in the statements? I went to Internal Affairs. He told me he was an officer for 26 years, I thought it Said Serve & Protect. which meant Not being Singled Out. If you read City of Danbury singles us out than you know that interestingly enough Mrs.K won't write a statement for fear of retribution, her best friend is married to this man. Isn't that interesting? The neighbor Mrs C and her son not only write conflicting statements. When this cop has no grounds to arrest he goes to court, gets a warrant based on an arrest record & not the incident. Did I tell you the arrest record was over 13 years prior. They make sure to get you into court where you are in the system and they are getting a conviction. The judge who signs the warrant is the same judge who does your trial. Can anyone say broken system? </span>Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2000289166049931609.post-34559550790753822492013-05-22T18:12:00.000-04:002014-04-23T13:28:22.972-04:00Singled out in Danbury, CTFirst, I am not a lawyer, and cannot give legal advice. I mistakenly moved to a<a href="https://sites.google.com/site/aquavistaassociation/" target="_blank"> private community</a> in 2005, but the harassment started in 2009, Although I lived the exact same way in 2005 when<br />
I moved in. <strong>Targeted, persistent, repeated harassment</strong> from the A.V. board members. Due to the fact the board members got help from the city, I am still being harassed, I cannot sell my home at this point, and my Civil Rights are being violated. My seven year old is having anxiety attacks and so am I. The private community is really not involved. I have a small landscaping business. I have some great neighbors, who really disgusted with the actions of the board and the city, in fact, I am their landscaper. To see the pictures of the home, the work & the Yard visit our <a href="https://www.facebook.com/familyg4" target="_blank">facebook</a> page. I believe you should do your best to defend yourself. I hope this never happens to you or someone that you care about. Further, I am asking anyone who works for a living with a family, landscapers, contractors anybody who can relate, or make a difference in my families life, who has a family or just thinks that the whole story is disgusting to call and complain to the Mayor's office or 311. I am asking that you write a letter to the<a href="http://www.danbury-ct.gov/" target="_blank"> mayors</a> office. Call the mayor directly and let him know how you feel about these actions. I'm sure he will welcome the response for, "People Over Politics". Feel free to comment on the <a href="https://sites.google.com/site/aquavistaassociation/" target="_blank">association</a> website. Please don't vote for him again, vote for the other guy. I am and I hope he plans to fire these people for abusing their power. It's out of control and needs to be shut down- peacefully of course. <br />
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This is the terrible truth about events in my life in the past few years and I hope to share my story with others. Please pass this on to everyone who lives in Danbury and people in Connecticut. This is a danger not only to my family but to anyone who lives here in Danbury as well, because it can happen to you too. In 1970 when zoning came through and bought the street they purchased a piece of my land as well. This land houses my septic system and was purchased for $1. It is absolutely useless to the City, but instead of "People over Politics" what I got after three letters to the mayor was to find myself in court being sued to remove my fence & equipment. The land could have been sold back for $1 and the taxes could have been collected, but because the city did favors for friends I was dragged through the courts, I cannot sell my home and my kids could chase after a ball and be seriously hurt or killed. Further, my husband has been arrested for the second time because board member lied and others swear to the lies. Then the police do favors for friends. It's frightening and we all need to know about this as citizens. <br />
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I was offered an agreement for the septic, verbally, but it's useless an the City knows it. It's not to help my family, but the shed their liability of the septic. They should have <strong>never</strong> purchased the land with the septic in it, and further even if they didn't know what they bought, why would you do this to a family with two little girls? If you goal was to take away anything from our family-you are just sad. Why would you not sell it back for $1 and tell those people that by law we were not doing anything wrong. Further, why would you try to attack us sending letters over & over, serving us. Further, Arresting my husband twice for breach of peace, when he was doing nothing wrong. Obviously he defended his family and he doesn't deserve the attack so viscously unleashed by these animals. No family should have to endure the hell my family has been through. I don't care who's feelings got hurt, or if he blocked the road a few times, grow up and get over yourselves, you should have thought of that when you had your hand on the phone and you were calling about, Dirt in the Street, and the other nonsense you enjoyed calling the police department for. Instead of these huge egos abut your position on the board why would you not come over and try to meet us and get to know us. What kind of people act like this?<br />
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I sell my condo for double what its worth. I put $30,000.00 down to lower the mortgage and sink the rest into a "fixer upper". The home is explained to have "nothing scathingly wrong with it by the realtor and it's our first home. I bought it while it was in probate because the man who owned it died suddenly. Which is now worth squat due to the housing market, and I cannot sell due to the City of Danbury, and the removal of my fence, and their direct attack on me and my family. I was young and foolish. I trusted the real estate agent, & my attorney to have my back, that is not what happened. When I moved in there was 100ft of forsynthia hedges. After finding two hypodermic needles in March/April 2009 we put in a white vinyl fence in place of the hedges. <a href="https://www.adoberevel.com/shares/cf0efb46215e4d7fb105f362a17b50c9/albums/291f9b170029489a876f29c807ef3613" target="_blank">Fence 2009</a> We did this for the safety of our children & to upgrade our land, but had no idea it wasn't our land because it was grossly misrepresented to us. We were exercising our constitutional right to privacy which is also being violated. Let's start with Mrs. C because she is the one who basically started everything. Let's call her Mrs. C board member and neighbor decided that after a flood from a Nor'easter on February 26th 2010, she would tell her insurance company that it was the cause of my husband when we leveled our yard & put in our fence a year prior. One City Paid Zoning Official, and one paid official but we will call him the lackee or Mr. S. since he doesn't work for zoning but does work for the mayor and were helping her build a case where their was no case they were on the clock abusing their power. She is the same one tied to the last arrest her & her son. <br />
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There was never an issue until the I did work at my home in March/April 2009. I put in a fence for the safety of my children. Although it's a private community the main road runs along my side yard and the cars speed by. I have been sitting in my car at the bus-stop and from the wind of the cars whipping by, my car moves. I found hypodermic needles and beer bottles, discarded garbage in my 100ft forsynthia hedges. I am being forced by court order to now remove the fence that keeps my children safe. It's disgusting to me. The street I live on is literally a one lane road and there are three houses on it. The board members became irate when they to go around the block. The ego's here could not be any bigger. There is another exit, closer to all of their homes, they do not use it much. To explain further when you pull into the driveway someone will have to wait while you pull in and due to the location of the house you might have to use the other street to back in. We live in a lake community, originally the homes were not designed to live in all year round. The homes were created originally as summer homes and so the roads are tiny, most people have two parking spaces due to the fact that the world has changed and everyone had their own vehicle. If you have a teenager you can relate. Yes this is a city, but not a busy city where public transportation is everywhere. These board members made it known that they were unhappy about going around the block, they cursed at us under their breathe, they cursed at us so we could hear them. They threw up their hands and even went as far as to stop and tell us "Are you going to move your sh**." "I'm on the <em>Board</em> you know". They called the police for everything and it's all made up. One board member lies and the other one swears to it. I guess it's what they think is "community." Most police just shrug & leave after they see the truth about what these people are calling about. It's never a real thing, but they love to call. I call them phone gangsters. It's clearly malicious and intentional. They call till this day & they lie to the police & the other board members swear to it, in a desperate attempt to cause harm to my family. Just recently my husband was arrested after an investigation was opened up weeks later and 53 days later was arrested for Breach of Peace-Road rage for beeping a horn, when the Board members teenage son almost smashed into one of our trucks as he was flying in reverse and evidently not in control of his vehicle. Although this guy was swearing, giving the finger and carrying on if you are friends with the police they arrest the other person for breach-of-peace and road rage. <br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">My pickup trucks are/were parked neatly in my driveway. My skid-steer is/was behind a fence in the back-yard <a href="http://www.danbury-ct.gov/filestorage/21015/21087/21123/23014/ZONINGREGSsec3.pdf" target="_blank"><b><span style="color: blue;">Danbury Code of Ordinance 3.E.4.</span></b></a> According to city ordinance you can have it if it's behind a landscaped buffer or fence. I had both. Further, there is a landscaper in this community who has all the same things that I have, but not a word is said to him. <strong>Liability of Public Officials Under 42 U.S.C. § 1983.</strong> I am <strong>not</strong> in violation of the ordinances I was charged with by the city.<a href="http://www.danbury-ct.gov/filestorage/21015/21087/21123/23014/ZONINGREGSsec4.pdf" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;"> <b><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">4.A.2</span></b></span></a><span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="color: blue;"> </span>and <b><a href="http://www.ci.danbury.ct.us/filestorage/21015/21087/21123/23014/ZONINGREGSsec10.pdf" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;">10.B.1.a</span>.</a> "A Contractor's Yard, Landscpers Yard/Office", </b>which by very definition does not exist. <b> </b></span>In the State of Connecticut, <span style="color: blue;"><b>Connecticut General Statutes <a href="http://www.lawserver.com/law/state/connecticut/ct-laws/connecticut_statutes_8-12a" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Title 8> Chapter 124> </span></a></b></span></span><span style="font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: blue; font-family: inherit;"><a href="http://www.lawserver.com/law/state/connecticut/ct-laws/connecticut_statutes_8-12a" target="_blank"><b>§ 8-12 (C)</b></a></span><span style="color: #190b07;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: #190b07; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="background-color: white;">Establishment of municipal penalties for violations of regulations.</span></span><strong> (c) Any zoning enforcement officer who issues a citation pursuant to an ordinance adopted under this section shall be liable for treble damages in any civil action if the court finds that such citation was issued frivolously or without probable cause.</strong></span> <em>This has been done to me & my family & proven in court, somehow it was not in our favor. Plain & simple.<span style="color: white;">-</span></em><span style="font-family: inherit;">I clearly proved it in court, it was ruled we could have everything but a skid-steer and a chipper but somehow the issue is continuing and the city is pursuing it. They have even tried to be slick and get my lawyer to help even though a judge didn't rule to move my trucks or trailers. By law it's staying in my driveway and if it didn't then where do we live? That would mean we have no rights as citizens. The only reason the things behind the fence had to be removed was because of ordinance 3.E.4. </span><br />
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I had no idea about the law, what ordinances were how to look them up and I do now. When I went down to the city hall I was given the run around. I was sent back and forth. I was told you didn't need a permit for a 6ft fence. I was told to get a permit from Mr. S. who started this whole thing to ", Close off the fence" out of sight out of mind." He lives in my neighborhood, works for the city and is VP of the board. There was never an appeal form given, no clear process and still have not received a "more formal statement" as to the Cease & Desist letters I received as required by law. I tried on three occasions to get an appeal or appeal form as what was stated on the paperwork I received. I figured out that the ordinances are <a href="http://www.ci.danbury.ct.us/content/21015/21087/21123/23014/23017.aspx" target="_blank">online.</a> and their is no process if you are targeted and singled out. When I showed them ordinances that I was being charged with, the people in charge asked me what they were. Really? I have spoken to attorneys. I have spoken to land surveyors, I have spoken to anyone who would listen. There was no such thing as an appeal process from zoning for my family. People are afraid of the city and it's a horrible position to be in. Which is a danger to every natural citizen. It means that they can do what-ever they want to whomever they want. Don't quit-Never stop fighting for your rights! I finally found a lawyer (out of here) that is helping us because even after years of being told the most stupid answers I never quit. I will never quit fighting for my family or my rights. <br />
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I have learned how to represent myself in the courts out of need. I cried out for help to The City of Danbury and after I wrote the mayor three letters begging for help and explaining how the people in charge were abusing their power, I found myself in court. I guess that was the obvious solution. Instead of disciplining the people responsible for grossly abusing their power or actually "Putting people over Politics" I found myself in a trial and a no win situation. The worst part is that the piece of land that the City bought in 1970 houses my septic. The City has no need for the land and since it was purchased for $1, it could be sold back for $1. Further, it would be smarter to collect the tax money. Of course that is not an option because instead of wasting tax payers money for trial and actually helping a family who was messed over the Mayor felt it was important to bring a family through a trial and force them to take a fence down that makes the property marketable. I am just a regular person, who had a dream to buy a home, start a family and who has been tormented by the association in the private community in which we live in Danbury, CT. To this day this continues on an almost daily basis and the worst part is I cannot sell my home, I'll explain further down. By permanent injunction I am being made to take down my fence, a fence that provides safety for two small children, although it was proven that I am not in violation of any ordinances, though it's not in the judges order, I am being made to get rid of my combination two plate pick-up trucks and a non-commercial pick-up truck. Even though by ordinance you can have a skid-steer behind a screened buffer, I am being made to get rid of my skid-steer. I proved that my dump truck was not commercial and I can by law have it. I proved the ordinances do not exist. Somehow, here I am. In fact there is another landscaper in this community and nothing is said to him. I don't want it to be either because neither of us is doing anything wrong. <br />
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The land in which my septic is housed in (my whole side yard) according to the City is a right of way. After getting a surveyor who wasn't afraid, wanted to do his job, and actually goes by the laws I found that the City is incorrect about how much of my land actually belongs to them. By the way here is how I actually got this done. I first called an Underground Surveying place. They came and marked my septic for about $100. I had called a big name around here for a survey. I was told. Don't bother, save your money, it's just going to come back the exact same way. <b>Wrong,</b> it did not and to say something like that without doing a title search is wreckless and shameful. Two important things, #1 their is no law in the state of CT that if you get a survey done that you have to file it with City hall. #2 Surveyors can only survey (A-2) what they can see, if you are smart what you do is get the Underground survey to mark the underground and then get a survey done. All this information is readily available to the City in town hall by the way. On one map from 1981, which was not a complete (A-2) survey and that was given to me by Zoning Official #2 Mr. L claiming that The City of Danbury to own the land, my whole side yard. According to the guy in town hall who is in charge of all the septic maintenance Mr. D it's a non-issue. He said," If the septic is working, what's the issue? You can put a septic anywhere". Evidently he forgot the rule that wells have to be 75ft from a Septic and that's why it was places in the location that it is now. Mostly because it's a boys club and he knows darn well it's only to flex it's muscle at a family. This man went as far as to say what if they widen the road? Yes, that would be such common sense, widen the road at just one house when there are houses all up & down the street right on top of a septic. <strong>FYI-</strong> There is no law stating you must file your survey with the City. <br />
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Since we have a system, based on what you can point out and not "justice" and most people who have never been in any " trouble with the law" we have an assumption that our Civil System, and zoning officials are just or fair, or that the local government-the city is there for us. Think again. The laws claim that zoning officials must come under equal protection grounds. <strong>Liability of Public Officials Under 42 U.S.C. § 1983-</strong> In terms for people who don't know what that means. Zoning enforcement and nuisance abatement has run amok in violation of civil rights and cannot single out one family for living just the same as everyone else is this city and New England for that matter. If you have a good leader, then these officials would be forced to do their jobs without abusing their power.<br />
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Our System....It's whatever you can prove in court or point out, unless the City is a boys club where they can do as they feel make sure to get an out of City attorney and ask specifically if they have an issue about going against the City or figure out a way to <b>stay out of court</b> and their is a way look around on you tube. Accept, I did nothing wrong, I bought a home & tried to make it safe for my little girls. I think most people just live their lives never giving the laws a second thought. The average person doesn't really know the laws, or even have any idea how to look them up, or further what they mean. It's a very confusing system, that's why we have lawyers,<em> I guess</em>? Try & get one without a huge retainer or that even wants to be bothered if your average person and Good Luck getting your questions answered. I did after finally years of asking lawyers, surveyors and friends. I learned how to defend myself on my smart phone because I have two small girls who need my undivided attention. If the City were to knock on the door an average person would trust them, take them at face value for whatever was being said and in an attempt to avoid any kind of "trouble" would just comply and try to get them to go away as fast as possible for fear of God knows what. But....What if one of these men lived in your neighborhood & was VP of the board in a private neighborhood? What if the guy had his own agenda. What if this person was not a good person, doing personal favors for friends. What if he began to help a neighbor with a civil case and start building a case against you in the process? What if all the people in the City were all not-friendly and you basically had no rights, had no shot in the dark to win in court because even when you prove in open court what the law is you are not an attorney and somehow the decision goes against what's just? It happened to me & my family.<br />
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When Zoning Official #1, <strong>Liability of Public Officials Under 42 U.S.C. § 1983</strong> there is another landscaper, right in the neighborhood with all the same things. Why would the city want and has not need have a need for the land. By map, one single plot map, that is missing the conveyance map of the septic system, I own about 6 feet from the house. If the city is allowed to go forward with my yard it takes away my entire yard and driveway. No-one in their right mind would buy this house like this, I would not have. When my husband made a joke and ran from one of the end of the yard to the other and asked the realtor Mrs. H, is this my yard? She said yes. Then he went over to the "second parking space" that had a truck in it. "Is this my yard", he repeated. Her reply, "yes". There is an entrance-way into the land for the septic to pump the house which The City is trying to get taken away in court. In trial VP of the board Mr. S's own words were "There was a parking space there as long as I can remember". By the way is an accessway to pump the septic. It's not the standard 9' and it's not paved. It was there when we moved in and in order to "close off the space" like the City was asking you had to recess the land since it was on an upward slope. If the city was not singling them out, every board member in this private community should be made to get rid of their "second parking space", multiple trailers, snow plows. We live just like everyone else on the board, but no one has an issue unless it's with us. Board Members with the exact same things.<span style="color: blue;"> <a href="https://www.adoberevel.com/shares/2edd3af2fe6441aaabb8ebb9c50a8e14/albums/21179acf8381459d9d4078e0b61e58d9" target="_blank">Board Members who live the exact same way</a></span><span style="color: red;"> </span>and further, it's not in the bi-laws of this community to not have things. Our things are neatly in my driveway or behind a fence as by ordinance. <strong>Liability of Public Officials Under 42 U.S.C. § 1983. </strong><br />
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<strong>To the Left is what they City is claiming is a right-of-way and claims belong to them. To the right is mine by map from 1981. The City used this to Bully our family. I own a lot more land than that. </strong></div>
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Mr L. showed up to my home, not on Equal protection grounds, armed with a plot map from 1981 and a spray can. The house was built in 1945 and there have been zoning laws in effect since 1970. It is called Pre-existing Non-conforming. This yard is not now or has never been a right of way. It's simple common sense that no-one built a home then stuck the Septic into city property. The city is aware of it and instead of just updating the map & collecting the tax money, (which is financially beneficial in this bad economy) They are choosing to waste tax payer money go take a family to trial.<br />
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I thought it was a nice place to raise children man was I mistaken. The neighborhood is safe, the schools are wonderful and the Board members are non-compassionate, self-serving and vindictive. Maybe some have displaced anger? I never knew that the word " community" meant translation viscous intentions. I had a much different idea of what being neighborly meant. Even in the ghetto people have more respect for the neighbors. Nobody calls the cops on the neighbor for blocking the street in fact they hang out in the street. I could go as a kid to my neighbor & borrow an egg or a stick of butter. My first experience after years of living here was having the cops called on me for stupid petty things. Blocking the street, which is sadly a different definition then what is actually happening. God forbid you have to take your spoiled over-privileged behind around the block, which is actually closer to where these board members live. I just plain got ripped off in multiple ways. <br />
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In discovery, on the case against the neighbor the other side was kind enough to give us the proof that the Board members, Mrs. C, Mr. A, Ms. G, now moved and not on the board and a deceased man who we have never met Mrs. NG's husband who is on the board committed Fraud, harassment, and clearly lied to signing false affidavits signed and notarized by another board member who frequently curses under her breathe as she drives by. Mrs K and calls the cops saying we block the street. In Ms. G's statement after police Department, Sgt. C did a favor for a friend for another board member Mr. M, who's father is a respected officer as well. Ms. G, When my husband was arrested on a breach of peace for a favor to a friend. "The neighbors and I got together, because he likes to frequently block the road, we call 311, something had to be done about it". (obviously 911) when this woman pulled directly behind my husband and shut off her car refusing to move. Four hours later after the police brushed her off a unit was at my home to arrest my husband for Breach of Peace I only figured out who was attacking me because the cop took pity on my and told me the truth because he was kind and only doing his job. I respect him because he is obviously a good cop forced to do the wrong thing. He was fighting with the Sargent & did not want to arrest my husband. At the point when my husband got out of the truck because he could not pull forward or back up due to the smallness of the road in a lake community and the fact that she pulled directly behind him. My husband had a stroke two weeks prior and was backing the truck in for my cousin who was a little nervous and helping us because it has our skid-steer on the trailer he had to help him due to the fact I wanted him to rest after such a crazy thing happening to his body and not to mention I was 8 months pregnant. The road is a one car road bottom line. It's a lake community anyone who goes down the road is blocking it. This woman claims fear from my husband. Due to the fact that my husband got into trouble as a kid, they used it as "probable cause". That was a over a decade before. How is that just? Everyday she walked past my house with her dogs twice a day. Does that seem like she fears for her life?<br />
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What kind of city has one guy as internal affairs? How is that just? Especially when he is in the same building as all the other officers and his job is to investigate police misconduct. Do you think that really happened or they investigated? No. I was brushed off, half threatened & when I told mayor in my second letter. I was brushed off again. Not only was the response to sue me, for my third letter, but they added things to the suit like having an apartment in my 996 sq ft house. Then revised it.<br />
Zoning officials had forged signatures on some of the Cease and Desist letters. What kind of people do this? Take a look at the video. The cops were here fast like always. Do you see Rage of any kind? You be the judge. <br />
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These people Board members-have done everything to us. They continue to harass us, call the police for non-sense and the police pretty much all know us now. It's pathetic. They are horrible hateful people with deep emotional issues. Maybe their mom's didn't hug them enough as children or maybe they just hate their own lives so deeply that they like to attack a family for no reason at all. They caused me to start having anxiety attacks. It was so bad that I was on the couch sick with anxiety, I went to the emergency room on three occasions, because I thought I was dying. I could barely leave my home and I had felt like they stole my peace. To all the stories of my husband being a monster, he wasn't outside in the street cursing everyone out and waiting to block the one lane road. If you experienced all the harassment we did, I am sure any normal person would act in the same manner. This man tried to defend his family. We work for a living to make a better life for our children. Nothing about anything we did was our fault and yet we have been treated like criminals. For the first time in my life I feel total rage and hatred toward another human being. I continuously pray for God to please help me feel forgiveness even when I don't. I can't even get away from these people because I can't sell. I don't want my children to have the wrong impression of the police, but they do. I don't want my kids lives to be effected by these evil people, but they are. Please help us. All I want is to be left alone. I want the land that is rightfully mine on a map so I can move. There are so many incidents that I have not mentioned because this blog is long. lol <br />
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I'm not a political person and I do not even vote. I'm going to start. Anyone would be better than the guy we have now and I am voting for that person and you should too. What we have had to endure, no one should have to endure. Thank You City of Danbury of singling out a family and giving these board members so much power to be bullies. The only thing that helps me is my holistic approach to life or I would be medicated and racked with anxiety. I will not quit. I will not stop fighting. Their is no reason, not a financial reason, or a logical reason for The City of Danbury to need the land.<strong> None.</strong> Yet they continue to try to prove a point that they have power and for what so you can win. What did you win accept to show that you are empty inside and pretty much a bully to children? Please help my two little girls. I am asking that in a peaceful way we come together and protest or anyone who has any legal power to shut-down this craziness. Do like me and vote for that other guy because it's a danger to all of us as citizens. I have been to several of people only to be told it's not their jurisdiction, it's a local issue. My families Civil Rights are clearly being violated. It's wrong and I thought I still lived in the USA. I have followed the legal chain of command, lost many hours of work, in order to research laws & attend hearings. I started to have severe panic attacks from all of the stress. Which is a whole other subject that I will post later. Please appreciate our difficult situation & help us find a way out of the nightmare that began when we thought we bought our dream-house. Vote so we have more control what's happening to us is unjust. The people have more power than they realize. The bottom line-no one cares in this City and you can do what you want as long as you know the "right" people. </div>
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<b>A PERONAL MESSAGE TO A.V. BOARD</b><br />
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Mrs C. and son- you are terrible human beings and should be ashamed of who you are as a people. I need to say from one mother to another. Who raises their son to lie and steal from a family? The fact that you as a group plotted to cause harm to my family is sickening do you know that normal people do not act this way? Big deal you have to sometimes go around the block. If you weren't so sheltered in life you would be able to go out the other exit, and if you were smart you would stop wasting the money on a pig roast and take down the awful pillars so that an emergency vehicle would be able to fit like you were told by the fire department. <br />
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Mr. & Mrs K. we know you are lemmings that cannot think for yourselves. Mrs K. Its obvious by the way that you come down our block, cursing at us you a very unhappy inside and it shows. It must suck to feel that way every day. <br />
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You are not the center of the universe. You are just as unimportant as everyone else in this world, but you are so over-privileged and stuck in the bubble of this neighborhood that you have no concept of the real world. It's sad. You also missed out on the opportunity to grow and meet people who are genuine. I'm sorry for your loss. <br />
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You are all very sad I pray for you all because you don't even know how very sad and empty you are. Mrs. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17404311746267391077noreply@blogger.com0