Saved By Grace Through Faith

I was up one night having an anxiety attack at 3:00 am and I was praying. I started to get discouraged and amusing myself I googled, "why do people suck". I came up with a website called fundanything.com. It read the people like Donald Trump (then not a president) help people I thought ok I'm so desperate to get out of my situation- God what are you trying to tell me. It was an impossible situation. Was this God I had no idea. I didn't know if this was my answer but I thought I couldn't hurt. In fact it felt healing to write and make the movie. https://youtu.be/AnsSDi1Jcmw

I heard from 3 different people on seven occasions to go back to church. I ignored it until the fifth or sixth time. Then I realized God was giving me a message. I was praying for  a while for him to take my anger and to heal my anxiety. I knew of God, but didn't know God I did and was hesitant until I got there . I felt like the sermon was for me, I cried through the whole thing. The next week I brought my family and we got saved. I got saved when I was young but I kept running from God. HE patiently waited and pursued me. The very next week we got baptized. Since then I have almost no anxiety. I do have some here & there but  only physical anxiety not mental anxiety. I have a peace I have never felt before in my life. It's amazing. If I am not supposed to raise these funds then I know God has a different plan for me & that we are supposed to get something better. I know it will be taken care of & somehow it will work out for our family. I know it's not my plan but his. I completely surrender to Gods plan for my life.

I know now that God was pursuing me the whole time. This was only a situation that the Lord could handle and he did. It was a miracle. It was too big for men but not too big for the Lord.